HuiQing

Im enjoying bumming around way too much for my own good.

Anyways it has been an intense week? Hahaha I guess you can say intense, what if Sundown and all... I know it's JUST 10km, if I were me, 3 years ago, when I was still an active softballer, in the prime of my youth and peaking in terms of fitness even I would say phish JUST 10KM SUCK IT UP AND RUN. But no! I am way past any form of peak in fitness and I think that was the worst 10km of my life, hahaha I was just short of wheezing and being unable to breathe.

Hahahaha running made me think of trng camp and all the PT coach and ms ong made us go through, lol looking back we really were seriouslyyyy pretty tough! Hhaahahaha I would never be able to survive it now. Heh, the worst I've experienced when pushed beyond what I can do wassss sec 2 trng camp, hahaha Ms Ong made us do a million jumping jacks and I started wheezing, hahaha that was the worst I think.

Anyways all that aside, Im glad I did that 10km with these 3 (:

I DON'T WANT TO RUN ;'(

Hahahhah so I did it (: After months and months of stress and a thing at the back of my head worrying what if what if what if, I got in! Hahahaha explosive happiness, man, when I checked my status update. Each time I did I was so worried to see the results, it was like A levels results day, the moment I got my slip and was about to flip it over to see what I got. Hahah each time I checked my status update felt exactly like that, I wasn't very sure if I really wanted to see my status change from Application Processing anymore, soooooooo scared that the result would be IM SORRY, YOU WERE NOT..... hahaha you have no idea how many dreams I've spent on this.

But it wasnt (: And all friends who were worried about what they would need to do in order to handle my probable disappointment can be worry-free! :D Hahahaha I was soooo happy I called up everyone I knew and liked who knew about this heh, even the people who are overseas but are contactable, hahaha thanks to all who kept telling me I would get in and had faith in me! Anyways everyone meet me sooooon <3

BUT I HAVE A NEW PROBLEM. You know how some mistakes are expensive.... I don't know if I should call this whole transfer saga a mistake, maybe if I had just realized what I wanted the moment I was born, or maybe if I'd just realized what I wanted BEFORE I APPLIED LAST YEAR FOR FASS, I could have saved a year, I could have saved 7k... Okay that is all.

Now because I spent last year at FASS, they'll revoke my tuition grant for my last year at ID hahahaha WHAT AM I SPSD TO DO WITH THAT. (YUX NOW I KNOW WHAT YOU WERE TALKING ABOUT YTD) And I have to sign and submit a letter to confirm that I know and agree with this arrangement by 1st of June! But I get the rationale behind it la, why would the government pay for you to slowly jump courses until you decide on one? Anyway, that's 35k that could have been saved if I'd just had my life figured out last year )':

Argh. It would be so much more convenient to reject the offer and keep my butt in FASS. Sigh sigh expensiveeeeee lag of sound judgement on my part ):

But then I was talking to my mom, and I was telling her all that stuff that I just mentioned, and she was like what makes you think applying last year and this year would result in my getting into ID?

Last year I had no idea I didn't like FASS this much, I didn't know that I cannot see myself going through 3 years in FASS in a blur, not caring, not feeling anything about my work and struggling to get used to the whole concept of not having a regular bunch of friends I can go to school with (hahahaha I am going to stop pretending that that was something that was easy for me) I didn't know that I'd rather not study in Uni if I have to learn another chapter of all that PR stuff. I thought that no matter what, even if I was unsure I would somehow learn to like SOMETHING in FASS enough to survive 4 years. But then that would be all that university means to me, surviving.

And since I didn't know all that stuff, I didn't (and couldn't) direct my energy into looking up something that I could like instead. Something that I could somehow link to my personality, my likes, my predisposition towards... that led me to Industrial Design. Hahaha the only reason how I could even come up with any material for my interview was that I blocked out all my doubts about ID and convinced myself that this is the course for me, period.

Hahahaha sigh sigh ohwell, regarding this issue, my mom said THIS IS LIFE. And my sister, YOU JUST HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT. Haha you can see where my streak of independence comes from right? Lol okay I will just have to!

( Amanda's 20th! )

I have officially finished most of the things I wanted to do before, I finished my game (farm life) I finished reading hunger games, I finished watching avengers, I finished blogging and editing photosssssss. Now Im left with waiting for my ID results (which is really mental torture) andddd, look for a job. I have latent and permanent stress about this ID, sigh ): hoping for the besttttt!

HAHAHA I NEVER KNEW I COULD TILE PICTURES LIKE THAT! Hahahaha I really like the photoshoot photos! Heh, aiya I will change the tiled pictures periodically but for now, tadahhhhhhh new layout! :D

Hahahahaha I WILL BLOG. Evidently my life post school has been pretty eventful, no time to blog, no heart to HAHA so many better things to do. But! It's nice to keep a journal... right? Hahha plus the past week has been prettyyyy intense! With phuket and what not so here is a long overdue update! (:

Sooooooo many things to blog about, to remember! Hehehe I will first blog about phuket, CREATED A BLOG ENTIRELY FOR IT HAHA as I promised I would so yeah :DD OKAY DONE HERE IT IS cypsatphuket

HEHE Im only done with day 1 and Im so tired already! Ill still blog about Bim's birthday, lol maybe I should create a whole other blog just for it tooooo

Tired!

Because no where else seems appropriate enough to do this, and Im not even sure if he reads my blog hahaha, but doing this on Facebook seems so, I don't know, it just seems strange. There wasn't even enough time just now at the alter for me to say too much people kept rushing me. So here

We weren't super close, but I guess even at such a level of closeness I feel a deep... Loss. Like how can someone just disappear like that. It shouldn't have happened to anyone, it shouldnt have happened at all but it did. There isn't even a now how, there is no questions of now how? for the people who were close to him because how do you answer a question like that in such a circumstance. Ive been hearing time heals all wounds but I don't know how such wounds can heal at all.

Anyways, whereever you are (something that Ive always wanted to know) be free from all that stress, pain and violence that you surely fought hard against on that fateless day at 650 am. I wouldn't say I can't imagine what that must have been like because it's all I can do to NOT imagine that ):

If I'd known, I would have talked to him a little more than I did, when we did boring capt things like awards, try to arrange a team lunch, go for the leadership camp, go to thailand with the rest of the team. But noone could ever have known man.

Be in a better place now! I hope you are Mou Sheng (:

TRYING TO GOOOO HOMEEE~

Hahahha ringing in my head non stop, I love it!

Jayesslee was a blast! Hahahaha not that the concert was over the top, hahaha I was actually alittle bored at first! Heh, I wasn't really expecting them to... just.... sing. Hahahahahahahaha plus the audience took awhile to warm up to them before their jokes started to get funny, I think they were awkward at first. BUT! They are gooooooood. Hahahah I've always thought so, but their live performance was really... I wish I could sing like that!!!!!!!! ): All those lucky people who are just born with it! Plus they are pretty, and skinny, and funny! Alittle too religious for a public concert like that soooo, other than that I really like them!


Hahaha but it was alot of fun hanging out with the 3, lololol completely insane, I think Bella is the craziest of the lot hahahah (but for some reason she is alot like me). They are all mean to me, as usual, cept Carin hahahaha I can count on Carin to take my side sometimes! But otherwise catching up was alot of fun! :D Glad everyone has finished exams and this is the nice twilight period without exams AND results so :D

IN OTHER NEWS, Phuket TMR!!!!!!!!


Less that 9 hours away, I feel so freaking unprepared for it. Im actually really scared. Of tsunamis, terrorists, plane bombings, plane hijackings, resort bombing, cabbies kidnapping us when we get into their cars, tuk tuks selling us off to brothels, TSUNAMIS, did I already mention that? Hahahah you'd think Im kidding but Im really not. I think how scared you feel before a trip is inversely proportional to the amount of prep you did for the trip. We don't have plan to get from airport to resort safely, we don't have a plan for the activities we wanna do there etc etc etc. Hahahaha D: I was not scared at all for Hongkong or Bintan with the friends.

I REALLY FEEL SCARED. Like something bad's gonna happen, we'll get lost/we'll get cheated/we'll be kidnapped, I keep imagining what we will have to do when a tsunami hits phuket again, how we should follow the animals hahahahaha MY GOD. I need to stop it.

ALL THAT ASIDE, I am excited (: Despite not feeling very ready, hahahaha! there is soooooooooo much to do there! I remember loving it when I was little. I am sooo gonna parasail and do everything! Hahaha I should bring a book! So that when we run out of things to do I can lie on some chair and sleep/read! (:

OKAY TO CURB MY PARANOIA
( Tsunami SURVIVAL KIT )

Yeah hunger games! Hahahha I am getting addicted to the book but too bad I watched the movie first, now the scenes and characters are already fixed in my headddd

Hahaha reading, having lots of me time, TOO MUCH FAMILY TIME, and taking care of Reirei, it's really the life after exams hahaha Im loving it! Not at all bored. I have much to complain about my family though... result of hanging out too much with them. Glad for the next 2 days of going out, and then glad for phuket that is coming! I could use a break from them haha

And my flight reminders keep coming in! Hahahah makes me soooooo excited :D Phuket on monday and I havent done a single thing to prep for it, I need to read up on tsunami escapes. I need to change money and buy things that I need

And then Korea is coming up! :D:D:D hahah just checked in online for everyone (I registered everyone wrong... apparently my sister is male and Huishan is the mother of Rei HAHAHA) but aiya noone cares. Everyones super excited! Hahaha itll be Reirei's first trip like ever, and the first trip for all 4 of us traveling together (: Now 5. Just hoping I can survive 10 days with the 4 of them, I tend to have a maximum threshold for anyone I hang with for too long. Oh dear this is how I will not find someone I like enough for long enough ):

OKAY hunger games!